DISCONNECTED
BY HUGO KORHONEN
A NEW CHAPTER
I was very bullied during his whole childhood. It was both emotional and physical. This took me to the darkest depths of my life, to depression.
I thought for years that the impacts of the bullying weren’t massive - but recently I observed otherwise. I have been offered help many times for my scars - but I rather heal them on my own - through art.
That’s where my art is headed next. It will be focused on what goes in my head - my reflections. I will be processing what I have, and am, going through, through the art - whilst wishing others will also heal through it.
Positivity is a huge thing for me - but none of us is positive all the time, but we can all be hopeful.
No matter how dark future pieces would be, they’ll always have an aspect of hope. That’s what I want to bring to everyone.
The first chapter - is about disconnection…
Chapter 1 - Disconnected
We start this new chapter by going right back to my tough childhood - ranging from 6-7 years old to around 2-4 years ago…
I spent a lot of time alone since I was 6-7 years old. I desperately wanted to fit in and make friends, but I struggled to get others to play with me. Eventually, I came to accept being alone, and to some extent, I even began to like it because it was easier than dealing with the bullies at school.
I never felt accepted at school, and the bullies made it very clear that there was something wrong with me every single day. But then, in the summer break between 7th and 8th grade, photography discovered me and offered a new path that led me to the great outdoors.
Nature never judged me, and there I felt understood, not so lonely anymore, and it was okay to be myself. Once I got used to being alone, I didn't really want to spend time with others anymore. Occasionally, someone would ask if I wanted to hang out, and I would respond with "I'm going for a walk in the forest today" or "I'm going for a walk under the moonlight." I said it like it was a joke, but in reality, I was photographing during these "walks" - cutting myself loose from others, judgments, and society overall.
Photography and nature gave me new hope to push through. There wasn't anything else that kept me going. They served their purpose of giving me peace and therapy during this hard time.
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This poem further below on this same page is written in the present tense - as I would be going through this right now. I feel that this is the best way to treat this trauma.
Why do I speak out on bullying and what I have gone through?
Because I feel the current society doesn’t give attention to what’s going on at schools especially and this truly saddens me.
For years I was bullied without success in resolving this. After the biggest abuse at school, the resolving process started for the millionth time - and the bullies got away with just saying “we didn’t know they were bullying him” - even though they were attacking me daily - both physically and mentally.
I hope people around the world will start to take bullying more seriously because it can leave huge scars - and even make many want to take their lives - or not mind if something accidentally happened to them - as Hugo thought.
I also want to show you can continue your life - even if you were bullied - or treated in a terrible way in the past.
DON’T MISS THE TRAILER!
DISCONNECTED
Alone and lonely,
A challenge hard to face.
But in nature's embrace,
My soul finds its place.
No bullies to hurt me,
No judgments to hear.
Nature lets me be me,
Without any fear.
Seeking acceptance,
Every day a new test.
Can others see me for who I am,
Or will I always feel repressed?
Darkness creeps around me,
A weight that's hard to bear.
I feel like no one understands,
And no one truly cares.
The light seems so far away,
A distant, flickering flame.
But through the lens of my camera,
A glimmer of hope remains.
Pushing through the gloom,
With photography as my light.
Will I find my way out,
Or will the darkness reign in spite?
But one thing is for certain,
I won't give up without a fight.
Even in the darkest of times,
I'll always seek the light.
How was the piece made?
The piece was made of two different photographs, both taken by Hugo, on the same trip to Northern Finland and Finnish Lapland in March 2023.
I wanted to make sure the Auroras in the photograph symbolized peace and hope - I didn’t feel any Aurora would work.
Often times you’d wish for crazy Auroras with every colour, but would that symbolize peace? I felt he needed Auroras that looked soft and magical - and luckily I was able to capture them around a week later just before I was about to head back home.
During that Aurora shoot, I got very worried about my toes - it was -22°C and I was far away from my accommodation in one of the largest National Parks in the whole of Finland.
I raced back home after shooting the Auroras (within speed limits of course), and wished my toes would make it… and luckily they did.
Back at the accommodation, there was one happy boy, with toes, and many photos of the Auroras.
A week before that incident, I was observing the weather at Riisitunturi National Park, my favourite National Park I have visited to this date. The weather wasn’t looking too promising there, so I decided to go to a nearby location I had once been to before, without getting any photos that time.
I hiked up, and I saw no views - it was all foggy. But I did try to figure out where this piece would work here. I knew he’d be back - and I was - the following day.
Now the view was visible and you could see the majestic repeating fells on the landscape. I felt incredibly connected to it - I hadn’t ever felt the same with a landscape. I couldn’t help myself admire the fells and think about all the stories that they held.
I initially took a shot with a drone - but then decided to see would a shot from a lower angle work better in this case, and it did, much better.
I made sure there was lots of sky in the shot, and that it was a wide-angle shot - giving that lonely feeling whilst showing the surroundings.
After a few photos had been taken, a headlamp of mine stopped working - which was surprising as it had been charged fully. Now I was on a fell in the coldness - without a proper lamp.
My phone can’t handle the cold well - and usually shuts down fast when taken outside of a pocket. I was wondering, whether could I use the phone’s flashlight for the shot - or was it too risky? Would I get back safe?
I ended up going for it - trusting I’ll find the way back to the car - and it was worth the risk. I made it back - and the phone was still working well.
Back I went to the accommodation where my grandma (yes, my grandma) was waiting with prepared food, and I started waiting for tomorrow’s new adventures.
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